July 10, 2009
Scarlet lips as red as a rose,
perfect hips in a seductive pose.
On the outside this is what I may be,
but what about looking at the heart within me.
Long black hair, surrounding my face,
baby blue eyes and full of grace.
This is what most men chase,
but my soul and feeling cannot be erased.
Long, untouched legs with a snug fitting skirt,
a short and sexy tube top shirt,
I take my looks with little pride,
for what I care about is what’s inside.
They say that these looks are a sensation,
that I am one of God’s best creations,
But all I really want is for you to see,
all the good that is within me
She has no special talent
No special beauty mark
No invention with a patent
No voice of a comely lark
No hourglass physique
No sunbeam likened smile
No lingering mystique
No manicured nails to file
But what she had she flaunted
With the style of a fur- lined stole
With the chic of a runway model
She flashed her beautiful soul
On a day like today,
a young lady arrived
at the airport,
with family
and friends.
Her heart was heavy,
and she was sad.
For she knew the time
has come to leave
this Heaven and
return to the
far lonely
world
elsewhere.
Unsettling feeling
in her heart,
a kind of longing
to stay back forever.
A kind of familiar loneliness
that she was acquainted with,
comes to her again.
And she sighed,
wistfully, forlornly,
hoping again hope,
to stay in this limbo
of joy and
belonging
forever.
‘Oh no, I’m leaving again’,
she murmured,
hot tears threatening
to well in her eyes.
Bravely, she forced
a smile at her
loved ones.
Without much of
a second look,
she bid them
farewell.
In the plane,
the girl sat,
with eyes closed,
reliving those
wonderful
and fond
memories
she left behind,
and those sweet voices
and carefree laughter
that accompanied
every single image
that went fleeting pass.
Unconsciously,
a faint smile ghosted at her mouth.
‘I’ll see them again soon.
Take care, my loved ones,
I’ll be back.’
I’ve been sitting around this life for years,
Not enough laughs and too many tears.
Trying to figure out where it all went,
These wasted years that I have spent.
Searching for something to go beyond,
Life’s a stone skipping across a pond.
At the last skip, it hits with a splash,
Down the stone sinks, gone in a flash.
Pushing and pulling, it’s tearing apart,
Poking and prodding an underused heart.
This dark velvet curtain that hides my soul,
Living this life has taken it’s toll.
In a flash of bright light, the curtain is torn,
Tumbling down all tattered and worn.
Revealing new life, a child within,
Born free of hate, of suffering and sin.
Now my eyes see what has never been told,
Striving forth happy, confident and bold.
Into a world that’s unfamiliar but friendly,
Into this new life my spirit will send me.
Living and laughing, loving it all,
I stood myself up and answered the call.
The darkness has gone, replaced by the light,
I gave up the darkness with hardly a fight.
I’ve been sitting around this life for years,
With laughter aplenty and hardly a tear.
Now I can see just where it all went,
Cherish every moment of this new life I’ve spent.
Have you ever felt,
the cold and lifeless hand of an infant,
gazed into their unblinking eyes,
and observed the face of death,
when masked in bittersweet innocence?
Have you ever touched your dreams,
and felt the simplistic joy,
of feeling them become reality,
only to abandon them,
for reasons you cannot explain?
Have you ever watched your family,
who once shared the greatest of loves,
suffer an unforgettable and unforgivable tragedy,
that will slowly, painfully, and inevitably,
tear them all apart?
Do you know, firsthand,
the evil that resides deep within the heart of every man,
every woman, and every child?
Have you seen its face as it randomly seeks,
a soul to torment and destroy?
Do you know the darker side of life,
the one that awakens you,
in the still of the night,
crying to the unknowable God’s,
�Save me from myself. ‘?
Does your heart constantly question,
whether humanity is obtainable,
in a world corrupted with suffering,
and where war,
is the favoured solution for peace?
If you really want to know me,
and understand the forces that compel me to move on,
then take these questions,
and take this pain,
for this who I am.
ur silence
I have spoken long enough
I have spoken well enough
Now let me be silent
And see how Silence speaks
Hear the words unspoken
For you could never speak
And whenever I asked you
All I could ever hear, was:
Your Silence
Yes, that very Silence of yours
Which confused all my life out
making me feel miserable
day in and day out
Still I kept holding on,
hoping on and hanging on
If you could ever speak
Yet you never spoke up
Instead, offered me a challenge
A challenge to a broken heart?
A challenge to a defeated soul?
Oh! How Ruthless you could be
And still you ever want me
To keep hearing your silence
And make some meaning of it all
I told you long before
Silence never works for me
I am a woman of words…
It might work well for you
So be it, my Friend
If that is what you call ˜friendship”
Let you be silent
And me be too
And we can still remain ˜friends”
For if you speak
And I speak too
Who knows, One day
I would rather die
A Friend of yours…
The Things I Love About You
I love the way you make me laugh
I love the way you make me cry
Tears of joy stream from my eyes
As I hear your voice, a loving surprise.
I love you when you’re angry
I love you when you’re sad
I love you when you’re glad
When you tell me of the day you had
I love you truly
I love you deeply
Ever since the day
I let you meet me
I missed you when you left
I miss you now more than ever
Making a mistake that I regret
Hoping that you are a forgiver
Without you, my life is strife
But now I ask for a second chance
Be with me and start a life
Together forever, an eternal dance
I wait for you as the days go by
My love is growing inch by inch
I cannot wait to see you again
But I wait for you, and your warm kiss
I love you
I see you staring at me,
but you never truly see,
why I love you, oh, so much,
when you’re so out of touch.
Feelings that we could have shared,
you flung behind without a care.
It seems so hard to let you go,
and the process is so slow.
I don’t know whether I should stay,
and waste another day away.
I do know, though, that all this pain,
will soon drive me insane.
You don’t feel me loving you,
and you just can’t seem to get a clue.
You don’t see me cry inside,
and in you I know I can’t confide.
Yet still I find that you are blind,
to things meant to be kind.
You know nothing of my fears,
and are unaware of all my tears.
I know I really can’t deny,
things I feel as I look you in the eye.
So who will help me make it though?
Who will tell me what to do?
How come every time I see your face,
for me there’s never any space?
Maybe someday you’ll see me differently,
so until then, I’ll be waiting silently.
I tried to tell you I love you
but the words were hard to find.
I’m always thinking about you
you’re the only one on my mind.
Oh why do I act so shy forever hiding my face
I should learn to laugh and not to cry put yourself in my place.
There were times I tried to kiss you but something told me no.
You wanted me to hold you but I
kept letting you go.
I’m afraid that I am not the guy
you’ve searched for all these years.
I will kindly leave now don’t you cry
try to hold back your tears.
It’s been so long I haven’t seen you
for quite awhile
When I think of how we me met it only
brings back your smile.
I remember when I held you then and
told you we’d never part
I loved you then I love you now and
I’ll hold you in my heart.
A mask of plastic happiness often covers her sadness
Her beliefs hidden from most
Afraid of, but willing to face the unknown
Wondering where her place is in this life
She has come close to sharing herself
Never completely revealing anything to anyone
Feelings of invisible chains corner her
When she dreams, reality shatters before her very eyes
Accomplishments she strives for just at hands grasp
She feels lost sometimes, not yet finding her notch in this world
At times the glimmer in her calm eyes slowly disappears
But within her heart a silent flame burns her inside and out
She roams day by day, playing roles
Strength unknowingly resides in her
History repeats itself once again
The translucent veil she so proudly wears
Little by little answers will come, pushing it aside
One day there will be no more mask for her to wear
One day her beliefs will be known
One day she’ll know her place in this life
One day she will share herself
ONE DAY this mask will be NO MORE
ThiS iS mE..i am me, just simply me.. i may be emotional sometimes.. im strong ( i think). im beautiful (whehehe),my greatest fear in life is having so much pain..(cnt bear with it) im intelligent ( i ges so), i hav lot’s of friends, people love me as me..i love everything..love to go on nature tripping, to go to the beach..esp watch the sunset, sitting on the beach.. love to hang around, to hav chit chats with my frends.. love bags, perfumes, flip flops, FOODS..hehehe! im a coffeaholic..hahaha! (can’t lived without it) and a wonder woman i ges?!hehehe…so this is me… and i am me, what you see is what you get..i can be so immature in falling in love..i can be easily get hurt..but standing tall, learning from that mistakes.. i hate being pretentious..i am happy.. cause im being loved and comfort..)thank you..!) and most of all im happy and contented with my life… ♫im thankful for that one person in my life..thank you for supporting me, for being there, for giving me comfort and for loving me unconditionally.. (tHanX a lot)…
what a girl wants isn’t always what a girl needs…
…be careful what you wish for….
Do not undermine your worth by
comparing yourself with others.
It is because we are different that each of us is special.
Do not set your goals by what other people deem important.
Only you know what is best for you.
Do not let your life slip through your fingers by living in the past nor for the future.
By living your life one day at a time, you live all the days of your life.
Do not give up when you still have something to give.
Nothing is really over until the moment you stop trying.
It is a fragile thread that binds us to each other.
Do not be afraid to encounter risks.
It is by taking chances that we learn how to be brave.
Do not shut love out of your life by saying it is impossible to find.
The quickest way to receive love is to give love;
The fastest way to lose love is to hold it too tightly;
In addition, the best way to keep love is to give it wings.
Do not dismiss your dreams.
To be without dreams is to be without hope;
To be without hope is to be without purpose.
Do not run through life so fast that you forget not only where you have been, but also where you are going.
Life is not a race, but a journey to be savored each step of the way…
still i rise
You may write me down in history
With your bitter, twisted lies,
You may trod me in the very dirt
But still, like dust, I’ll rise.
Does my sassiness upset you?
Why are you beset with gloom?
‘Cause I walk like I’ve got oil wells
Pumping in my living room.
Just like moons and like suns,
With the certainty of tides,
Just like hopes springing high,
Still I’ll rise.
Did you want to see me broken?
Bowed head and lowered eyes?
Shoulders falling down like teardrops.
Weakened by my soulful cries.
Does my haughtiness offend you?
Don’t you take it awful hard
‘Cause I laugh like I’ve got gold mines
Diggin’ in my own back yard.
You may shoot me with your words,
You may cut me with your eyes,
You may kill me with your hatefulness,
But still, like air, I’ll rise.
Does my sexiness upset you?
Does it come as a surprise
That I dance like I’ve got diamonds
At the meeting of my thighs?
Out of the huts of history’s shame - I rise
Up from a past that’s rooted in pain - I rise
I’m a black ocean, leaping and wide,
Welling and swelling I bear in the tide.
Leaving behind nights of terror and fear - I rise
Into a daybreak that’s wondrously clear - I rise
Bringing the gifts that my ancestors gave,
I am the dream and the hope of the slave
I rise
I rise
PHENOMENAL WOMAN
Pretty women wonder where my secret lies.
I’m not cute or built to suit a fashion model’s size
But when I start to tell them,
They think I’m telling lies.
I say,
It’s in the reach of my arms
The span of my hips,
The stride of my step,
The curl of my lips.
I’m a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That’s me.
I walk into a room
Just as cool as you please,
And to a man,
The fellows stand or
Fall down on their knees.
Then they swarm around me,
A hive of honey bees.
I say,
It’s the fire in my eyes,
And the flash of my teeth,
The swing in my waist,
And the joy in my feet.
I’m a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That’s me.
Men themselves have wondered
What they see in me.
They try so much
But they can’t touch
My inner mystery.
When I try to show them
They say they still can’t see.
I say,
It’s the arch of my back,
The sun of my smile,
The ride of my breasts,
The grace of my style.
I’m a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal wo
man,
That’s me.
Now you understand
Just why my head’s not bowed.
I don’t shout or jump about
Or have to talk real loud.
When you see me passing
It ought to make you proud.
I say,
It’s in the click of my heels,
The bend of my hair,
the palm of my hand,
The need of my care.
‘Cause I’m a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That’s me.
A magic moment I remember:
I raised my eyes and you were there.
A fleeting vision, the quintessence
Of all that’s beautiful and rare.
I pray to mute despair and anguish
To vain pursuits the world esteems,
Long did I near your soothing accents,
Long did your features haunt my dreams.
Time passed- A rebel storm-blast scattered
The reveries that once were mine
And I forgot your soothing accents,
Your features gracefully divine.
In dark days of enforced retirement
I gazed upon grey skies above
With no ideals to inspire me,
No one to cry for, live for, love.
Then came a moment of renaissance,
I looked up- you again are there,
A fleeting vision, the quintessence
Of all that`s beautiful and rare.
June 25, 2009
tiny white speck
One cloudy night..
I looked up in the sky through my window..
I saw one tiny white star..
It made me smile..
I was happy to see that star..
I opened my window and tried to look..
But it was not there..
I couldn’t see it..
I closed my window..
And there i saw it once more..
Until I realized that it was just a tiny white speck of paint..
It made me even happier..
Coz i am the only one who could see that tiny white star..
It was mine..
It’s in my window..
No cloud can hide it from me..
Not even the light of day..
June 13, 2009
it haS no vocal cOrds
yet it has the voiCe to say mY words
it cannOt thinK
yEt it has the power to bring my thOughts in liGht
it is lifeless
yet it alLows mE to cOmmunicate life
it has nO ear
yet it enabLes mE to reSpond to whUt i heaR
mY pen, was not cReated bY GOD
bUt camE intO being, throuGh mAn
it is bUt an invEntiOn
that gEts man attEntiOn
fRom a mAn who haS tongue
yet whistLes filthy words like a cLang
frOm a man endOwed with wisDom
yet thinkS with hollowness near hiS tOmb.
fRom a man possesing life
yEt walks in thE pathway of DeaTh
frOm a man blessed with eArS
yet cUd hardly heAr him whO breakS in teArs
mY pen is aRRayed with itS own limitationS & suBjeCt to many cOnditiOns
yEt it delightly revealS who I AM beneaTh mY sheeVes.
i sEe my pEn as an endeAring friEnd
it iS buT a pieCe of stiCk
yet it cAn do wonDers in jUst a cLick
and an ounCe of ink is whut it nEeds
to sow a bUnch of seeds.
sEed of tRuth that will remAin bY tomorrow
whEn u will sEe mE nO more…
crying
There was a time
When I was so broken hearted
Love wasn’t much of a friend of mine
The tables have turned, yeah
‘Cause me and them ways have parted
That kind of love was the killin’ kind
Now listen
All I want is someone I can’t resist
I know all I need to know by the way that I got kissed
It’s down on me
Yeah I got to tell you one thing
It’s been on my mind
Girl I gotta say
We’re partners in crime
You got that certain something
What you give to me
Takes my breath away
Now the word out on the street
Is the devil’s in your kiss
If our love goes up in flames
It’s a fire I can’t resist
‘Cause what you got inside
Ain’t where your love should stay
Yeah, our love, sweet love, ain’t love
If you give your heart away
I was cryin’ when I met you
Now I’m tryin’ to forget you
Your love is sweet misery
I was cryin’ just to get you
Now I’m dyin’ cause I let you
Do what you do to me
better together
There’s no combination of words
I could put on the back of a postcard
No song that I could sing
But I can try for your heart,
our dreams, and they are made out of real things
like a shoebox of photographs
with sepia-toned loving
Love is the answer
at least for most of the questions in my heart, like
Why are we here? And where do we go?
And how come it’s so hard?
It’s not always easy and
sometimes life can be deceiving
I’ll tell you one thing, it’s always better when we’re together
Mmmm, It’s always better when we’re together
Yeah we’ll look at the stars and we’re together
Well, it’s always better when we’re together
Yeah it’s always better when we’re together
And all of these moments
just might find their way into my dreams tonight,
But I know that they’ll be gone
when the morning light sings
and brings new things
for tomorrow night you see
that they’ll be gone too,
too many things I have to do
But if all of these dreams might find their way
into my day to day scene
I’d be under the impression
i was somewhere in between
With only two,
Just me and you,
Not so many things we got to do
or places we got to be
We’ll sit beneath the mango tree, now,
Yeah It’s always better when we’re together
Mmmm, we’re somewhere in between together
Well, it’s always better when we’re together
Yeah, it’s always better when we’re together
mmmmmmm
I believe in memories
they look so, so pretty when I sleep
Hey now, and when I wake up,
you look so pretty sleeping next to me
But there is not enough time,
There is no, no song I could sing
and there is no combination of words I could say
but I will still tell you one thing
We’re Better together 
I never gone with the wind
Just let it flow
let it take me where it wants to go
’till you open the door there’s so much more
i’ve never seen it before
i was trying to fly
but i couldn’t find wings
but you came along and you changed everything
you lift my feet off the ground
you spin me around
you make me crazier crazier
feels like i’m falling
and i, i’m lost in your eyes
you make me crazier crazier crazier
i watched from a distance as you made life your own
every sky was your own kind of blue
and i wanted to know how that would feel
and you made it so real
you showed me something that i couldn’t see
you opened my eyes and you made me believe
you lift my feet off the ground
you spin me around
you make me crazier crazier
feels like im falling
and i, i’m lost in your eyes
you make me crazier crazier crazier
ohhhhh
Baby you showed me what living is for
i don’t want to hide anymore
you lift my feet off the ground you spin me around
you make me crazier crazier
feels like im falling
and i’m lost in your eyes
you make me crazier crazier crazier
crazier crazier
March 9, 2009
Again here comes another extra ordinary day
Staring at you don’t know what to say
Can’t look directly into your shining eyes
Can’t you feel? I’m in heaven by your side!
It’s hard to explain
This feeling that i gain
For without you by my side
I’d be a fool again
But then i heard there’s someone else in your heart
This feeling that I feel just hurts me so much
So before i let you go there’s one thing i want you to know
My love for you won’t stop to grow
Hope you’ll remember this very simple thing
For whatever would happened i will be right here waiting
I had always loved you, baby it’s true
So I’ll let you go for your dreams to come true
But here in my heart a simple wish is locked
That someday to you I’ll come close
And that you’ll take good care of me
Just like a rose…
And now the purple dusk of twilight time
Steals across the meadows of my heart
High up in the sky the little stars climb
Always reminding me that we’re apart
You wander down the lane and far away
Leaving me a song that will not die
Love is now the stardust of yesterday
The music of the years gone by
Sometimes I wonder why I spend
The lonely night dreaming of a song
The melody haunts my reverie
And I am once again with you
When our love was new
And each kiss an inspiration
But that was long ago
Now my consolation
Is in the stardust of a song
Beside a garden wall
When stars are bright
You are in my arms
The nightingale tells his fairy tale
A paradise where roses bloom
Though I dream in vain
In my heart it will remain
My stardust melody
The memory of love’s refrain
[oh memory . . . oh memory . . . oh memory]
I sometimes feel my heart will burst
from wanting you so much
I can’t explain in words of how
I long to feel your touch
There is no way I can convey
this emptiness inside
That seems to tear my soul to shreds
as time goes swiftly by
If I could merely hold you near
for just a little while
If I could simply talk with you
or only see you smile
To have you look into my eyes
and wait to hear you say
Something that would help me
to take this pain away
If I have to wait forever
I guess that’s what I’ll do
For me, it will be worth it
to finally be with yo
