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stranded between being happy and sad

July 8, 2009
randed between being happy and sad

i’m happy because now i finally made a decision on my own.. I admit that im the one who left HIM… but i know i did the right thing for the both of us.. i’ve been lost for awhile and my past days was a complete mess.. but here I am picking myself up from where I left things off. im glad to have my friends behind me at this time. Loads of thanks to you guys.. same to those people who is willing to help me in their own cmple ways…I’m happy on how CATH is progressing really fast, but i can’t help to be sad too..

the person whose been there for me everyday,the one who never failed to encourage me, have decided to forget me..haha! I don’t know how many times we’ve tried to say our goodbyes already, but we always end up talking again. Although this time, I’m afraid he might be really serious about it. (but isn’t that d thing i want?) i think he finally decided to leave me for good.. (can’t help to cry? haha!)

It’s really hard even just to think about it, but we both know that it’s something that we must do. I don’t want people to judge him, we love each other but there’s nothing going on between us.at first we simply decided to stay as friends, but the more that we talk and hold on, the deeper our feelings become for each other, and the harder it is to let go. so even having friendly relationship with him is not acceptable. (haha!)

I’m not sure how I’d move on and go through life without him by my side (i know i can do it! ds is wat i asked for!). For the past few months, he’s been my constant company. He’s the only one who ever really understood, and I can even say that he knows me more than anyone else. He’s not just a friend, but a sibling as well as someone who loved me for everything that I am good or bad. My alter ego.

i know i will have a hard time moving forward. and i’m not quite sure if i’m ready.Well, there’s no such thing as a “sure thing” in this life anyways.. I guess I must try to do so, and give my best shot, otherwise I might get stuck forever.according to James Baldwin

Love does not begin and end the way we seem to think it does. Love is a battle, love is a war; love is a growing up.

…so i must grow up after all the things i’ve been tru.. now i know there’s no such thing as

FOREVER, but there will always be a NOW and NEVER (srili ko ng kowts yan haha!)

smyl..:p

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