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i try to be sensitive
i try to be tough
i try to walk away
i try to be innocent
i try to be rough
but i just wanna play
….

People who avoid commitment
are people who know what a big thing it is.
i try to forget
but its getting harder as it gets
i try to run away
but its getting harder everyday
one step forward
two steps backward
as i put a smile on my face
my heart breaks in many different ways
you put me through many emotions
and you didnt give me enough attention
you always make me feel i was taken for granted
your love and affection is all that i ever wanted

one step at a tym 

If only tears could wipe away the pain I’m feeling inside…

It was too painful. I don’t know if I can still bear the pain I’m feeling inside. Is this the price of loving someone intensely? I feel lost without him. He means so much to me. I did never expect him to hurt me this way, as I’m feeling right now.

It’s been few months since it happened but still the wound was so fresh. The pain is undying.

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My story began after I’ve been through heartache. I met this guy when I was in College. I remember his face that day but I never expected I’d be falling in love again…with him. I’m falling in love with him as the days pass by and I don’t know why. It’s like, something’s drawing me near to him. It’s like magic. A year passed by but still he didn’t notice my mysterious feelings for him until a party came. He chose me as his partner. I gladly accepted his invitation. I thought it was just a friendly date but it was the start of a beautiful relationship I’d never expected to have. I can still remember the day when he proposed. I was shocked…. really really shocked. My face even turned red.

Days passed and eventually we became more than friends. My feelings for him grow as days passed by. He is everything to me. I never felt this wonderful feeling as before. I was so happy that I have him. I care a lot to him. I think of him often. I miss him every minute, every second. I have loved him more as I did before.

I never thought this would come to an end… until one day, I found myself crying. It was a surprise GOODBYE.

…”The journey has to end here”. My greatest fear happened on the sweet month of February… my birthday month, my favorite month and it happened on its 14th day – “Valentine’s Day”, the day when we should celebrate our love for others.

Gone are the days, which are so light and sweet. I couldn’t help it so I’d cry myself like what I’m doing now. It’s like I was broken into pieces. It was the most painful thing I had in my life. Never had I felt this before. I can’t believe it’s over. He is nowhere. He is no longer mine. We no longer belong to each other’s arms.

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I have had so many sleepless nights. I have lost my inner strength. I have lost my life. It’s like I have noone. I have nothing…. He left me. 

The road we are taking now
is and will forever be hard to take..
but as long as you’re with me I won’t care.

Its amazing how rain symbolizes fearless love
rain just keeps on falling not knowing where it would land
yet it still fall…

This is beautiful. Read it to the end…the message is awesome!!!

Let it go ..

By T. D. Jakes

There are people who can walk away from you.

And hear me when I tell you this! When people can walk away from you: let them walk.
I don’t want you to try to talk another person into staying with you, loving you, calling you, caring about you, coming to see you, staying attached to you. I mean hang up the phone.

When people can walk away from you let them walk. Your destiny is never tied to anybody that left.

The bible said that, they came out from us that it might be made manifest that they were not for
us. For had they been of us, no doubt they would have continued with us. [1 John 2:19]

People leave you because they are not joined to you. And if they are not joined to you, you can’t make them stay.

Let them go.

And it doesn’t mean that they are a bad person it just means that their part in the story is over. And you’ve got
to know when people’s part in your story is over so that you don’t keep trying to raise the dead.
You’ve got to know when it’s dead.

You’ve got to know when it’s over. Let me tell you something. I’ve got the gift of good-bye. It’s the tenth spiritual gift, I believe in good-bye. It’s not that I’m hateful, it’s that I’m faithful, and I know whatever God means for me to have He’ll give it to me. And if it takes too much sweat I don’t need it. Stop begging people to stay.

Let them go!!

If you are holding on to something that doesn’t belong to you and was never intended for your life,

then you need to……

LET IT GO!!!

If you are holding on to past hurts and pains ……

LET IT GO!!!

If someone can’t treat you right, love you back, and
see your worth…..

LET IT GO!!!

If someone has angered you ……..

LET IT GO!!!

If you are holding on to some thoughts of evil and revenge……

LET IT GO!!!

If you are involved in a wrong relationship or addiction……

LET IT GO!!!

If you are holding on to a job that no longer meets your needs or talents

LET IT GO!!!

If you! u have a bad attitude…….

LET IT GO!!!

If you keep judging others to make yourself feel better……

LET IT GO!!!

If you’re stuck in the past and God is trying to take you to a new level in Him……

LET IT GO!!!

If you are struggling with the healing of a broken relationship…….

LET IT GO!!!

If you keep trying to help someone who won’t even try to help themselves……

LET IT GO!!!

If you’re feeling depressed and stressed ………

LET IT GO!!!

If there is a particular situation that you are so used to handling yourself and God is saying “take your hands off of it,” then you need to……

LET IT GO!!!

Let the past be the past. Forget the former things. GOD is doing a new thing NOW !!!

LET IT GO!!!

Get Right or Get Left.. Think about it, and then.

LET IT GO!!! Thank you for loving me the way you do.

let go 

what have i done
to ruin the relationship we had once
i thought were gonna make it
i am starting to feel great
i’ve known you for so long
and so am i to you
that’s y i took right away the opportunity
of knowing more about you
but if i were to be asked
it’s just a simple reason
with just a fone call issue
you’ve changed that soon
im just proud to let my friends know
that you were calling me
though what we have is forbidden to show
i want to show them that i am happy
i’d love u for real,hope in that u were aware
coz wen we parted i shed some tears
and later i found out,u have someone new
yet the most shocking part,
my goodness she’s my friend too
though it has been months since we broke up
u cant stop me from feeling the pain i have in my heart
i thot it was ok,i thot its nuthing…
then wat the hell,is this shit that im feeling.
but i woke up and learning to let go
though it hurts,it is the ryt thing to do.
my friend loves you
and i know ur happy too
i’ll just wish u the best
wish u both the happiness
though i truly wish i was the girl who’s with u
its ok,and it’s alright, i still have u for keeps
i want u back,coz still i love you,
but for the sake of others…
i will let go.

1. Falling in love.
2. Laughing till your stomach hurts.
3. Enjoying a ride down the country side.
4. Listening to your favorite song on the radio.
5. Going to sleep listening to the rain pouring outside.
6. Getting out of the shower and wrapping yourself with a warm, fuzzy towel.
7. Passing your final exams with good grades.
8. Being part of an interesting conversation.
9. Finding some money in some old pants.
10. Laughing at yourself.
11. Sharing a wonderful dinner with all your friends.
12. Laughing without a reason.
13. “Accidentally” hearing someone say something good about you.
14. Watching the sunset.
15. Listening to a song that reminds you of an important person in your life.
16. Receiving or giving your first kiss.
17. Feeling this movement in your body when seeing this “special” someone.
18. Having a great time with your friends.
19. Seeing the one you love happy.
20. Wearing the shirt of a person you love and smelling his/her perfume.
21. Visiting an old friend of yours and remembering great memories.
22. Hearing some telling you “I LOVE YOU”

“True friends come in the good times when we tell them to, and come in the bad times…..without calling.”

Now each of us from time to time, has gazed upon the sea,
and watched the warships pulling out, to keep this country free.
And most of us have read a book; or heard a lusty tale,
about the men who sail these ships, through lightin’, wind and hail.

But there’s a place within each ship, that legend fails to teach,
it’s down below the water line; and takes a living toll;
a heated metal living hell,
that sailors call ‘the hole”.

It houses engines, ran by steam; that makes the shaft go ’round.
A place of fire, noise and heat, that beats your spirits down.
Where boilers are the hellish heart, with blood of angry steam,
are molded gods without remorse, and nightmares in a dream.

The roaring fires pose a threat, like living life in doubt,
for any minute without scorn, could escape and crush you out.
Where turbines scream like tortured souls, alone and lost in hell,
with orders from somewhere above, they answer every bell.

The men who keep these fires lit, and make the engines run,
are strangers to the world of light, and rarely see the sun.
They have no time for man or God, no tolerance for fear;
their aspect pays no living thing, the tribute of a tear.

There is little that men can do, that these men haven’t done,
beneath the decks, deep in the hole, to make the engines run.
And every hour of every day, they keep their watch in hell,
for if the fires ever fail, their ships’ a useless shell.

When ships converge, to have a war, upon an angry sea,
the men below just grimly smile, at what their fate might be.
They’re locked below, like men ‘for doomed, who hear no battle cry.
It’s well assumed that if they’re hit, the men below will die.

For every day’s a war down there, when the gages all read red
twelve-hundred pounds of heated steam can kill you mighty dead.
So if you ever write their son’s, or even try to tell their tale,
the very words will make you hear, the fired furnace wail.

These “Men of steel” they are the best, though the public never gets to know.
So little’s known about the place that sailors call the hole.
But I can sing about this place, and try and make you see,
the hardened life of men down there, ’cause one of them is me.

I’ve seen those sweat soaked heroes fight, in superheated air,
to keep the ship alive and right, though no one knows they’re there.
And thus they’ll fight for ages on, ’till steamships sail no more,
amid the boilers mighty heat and the turbines hellish roar.

So when you see a ship pull out, to meet a warlike foe,
remember faintly, if you can, the men who sail below.